Honestly, this blogging stuff takes too much of my time. But since I'm about to go to bed, I thought maybe I can write something about myself. ....I'm not even sure if this blog is going to be about "cycling!"

Anyways, I haven't been on the bike for...maybe 3 weeks now. I feel that this year was a bit too much for me. That includes relationships, racing, LIFE in general, buying a damn house....SUPER STRESSFUL. So I felt that I would just pay myself back and have a good time. It's off season and all I've done is party every fucking day. I'm almost sick of it, and I'm glad cus when I'm back on the bike, I don't want no bullshit and wanting to go out on a weekday and not be able to wake up in the morning to go out for a 4 hr ride. I'm tired of your shit Chuck.

OCTOBER, OCTOBER, OCTOBER! You've given me so much drugs. I'm starting to think that I'm going to hate it SO MUCH when I get back on the bike. But it's all good, let's just get all this shit out of the way I guess...

I was thinking, the other day, I'm glad I decided to stay with Allegiant. Even though we were having problems with money, the team I ride for/with are so good to me. I feel no pressure at all and I feel that they understand what I've gone through. I recently talked to my team capt. Tony. I told him how I haven't been on the bike in weeks! Normally, I'd, mostlikely, get a smack in the back of my head but instead, I heard "October is the best time to do all that, just keep in touch!" I never told him about the drugs though, so maybe things wouldn't go as smooth? haha
I think it's important to love the team you ride for and understand the people that are in it. Without all of this, I wouldn't have the motivation to ride or even race! Motivation is the key and I will stick to it. Allegiant motivates me and I'm doing fine right now so nothing else will get in the way. Unless of course Garmin asks me to race for them :)

Ahhh, cycling has taken over my life. It definitely has and I have no problem with it.
I'll be back on the bike sometime next week! Time for another year of racing and lots of riding. Get all these stupid shit out of the way, out of my head, I don't need anymore problems.